So this blog is supposed to be about what is right in the world... I don't think that I can put enough spin on this post to make it about something right in my world, unfortunately.
I am a monster mom. Or I should say, I become a monster mom on occasion. It has been a few months since it happened, but then tonight - it came back. It's the worst part of being a parent - the time when all you can do is provide an angry lecture that leaves everyone involved feeling low.
Even now, I just have to shake my head and wonder if kids are as resilient as them seem.
I keep telling myself, that I am not that person. I am not that mom, that monster that I just heard.
Today, this post is all about what is not right in me.
Monday, May 16, 2011
Sunday, May 15, 2011
Knowledge #1
I read and re-read scriptures about the importance of learning today... This is certainly something that hits home for me today.
I know that life does not come with a manual. Parenting does not come with one either. I think that the only way to get beyond the survival mode in either life or parenting is to learn your way through. Learn through reading, seeking knowledge from many sources, and finding things out through experience.
In Relief Society today, we sang "As I Search the Holy Scriptures". I listened to the words, as if for the first time... "may my hear be blessed with wisdom and may knowledge fill my mind... may life's mysteries be unfolded as I study day by day..."
Some of the scriptures that were included in this value experience talked about gospel learning - precept upon precept, line upon line. I think that is how all learning becomes knowledge. It is how knowledge becomes wisdom. This cannot be achieved with one experience or through only working on something one time. The way to gain knowledge and wisdom is to continually seek it.
Knowledge is what cannot be taken from us. It will be with us for eternity. It is important to seek the best knowledge, learning from many good sources. I am seeking that for myself and hopefully as a good example to my kids.
I know that life does not come with a manual. Parenting does not come with one either. I think that the only way to get beyond the survival mode in either life or parenting is to learn your way through. Learn through reading, seeking knowledge from many sources, and finding things out through experience.
In Relief Society today, we sang "As I Search the Holy Scriptures". I listened to the words, as if for the first time... "may my hear be blessed with wisdom and may knowledge fill my mind... may life's mysteries be unfolded as I study day by day..."
Some of the scriptures that were included in this value experience talked about gospel learning - precept upon precept, line upon line. I think that is how all learning becomes knowledge. It is how knowledge becomes wisdom. This cannot be achieved with one experience or through only working on something one time. The way to gain knowledge and wisdom is to continually seek it.
Knowledge is what cannot be taken from us. It will be with us for eternity. It is important to seek the best knowledge, learning from many good sources. I am seeking that for myself and hopefully as a good example to my kids.
Sunday, May 8, 2011
Faith # 2
I chose to work on the personal progress value experience number 2 under Faith because I happened to be on the train headed to work and was only carrying my Book of Mormon. This is one of the experiences that only referenced the Book of Mormon rather than other scriptures.
Perhaps it was more than that though; perhaps I needed a kick start to thinking about motherhood and faith.
I am not sure that I have taught my children like the mothers of the "stripling warriors". I need to focus on this because I want them both to have enough faith to be strong while facing the worldly temptations all around. The stripling warriors knew that the Lord would be with them. They knew because of the things that their mothers taught them.
The importance of a mother's role could never be so apparent as it is to me, on this day. I want my kids to believe like the stripling warriors did. I want my kids to know that I love the Lord and have faith that He is always with me - through the trials and the good times. I want them to know that the Lord can be with them too.
I know that I was guided to work on this particular value experience first for a reason. I know that was the influence of my Heavenly Father.
Perhaps it was more than that though; perhaps I needed a kick start to thinking about motherhood and faith.
I am not sure that I have taught my children like the mothers of the "stripling warriors". I need to focus on this because I want them both to have enough faith to be strong while facing the worldly temptations all around. The stripling warriors knew that the Lord would be with them. They knew because of the things that their mothers taught them.
The importance of a mother's role could never be so apparent as it is to me, on this day. I want my kids to believe like the stripling warriors did. I want my kids to know that I love the Lord and have faith that He is always with me - through the trials and the good times. I want them to know that the Lord can be with them too.
I know that I was guided to work on this particular value experience first for a reason. I know that was the influence of my Heavenly Father.
Monday, May 2, 2011
We believe...
I used to be able to memorize things easily, usually in a short time frame. I am disappointed that my brain does not function like that anymore.
I am still working on memorizing the 13th Article of Faith. Maybe once I get that down, I will feel inclined to write more.
I am still working on memorizing the 13th Article of Faith. Maybe once I get that down, I will feel inclined to write more.
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